Keep Shining! | Mar. 2009 ✧･ﾟ✧

Keep Shining! | Mar. 2009

I'm filled with optimism, I'm finally the light
& I never ever knew anything that could feel this right
Like a power that washes away my dreads
Yet at the same time, clears most troubled heads

I'm so calm, I'm serene
The darkness in me is obscene
I never knew that the best love out there
is to love one self, it's THE endless flair
So right now, I'll never feel as good
But hey, it's fun to push the limit to see if I would

Crashing Waves of Instability | Aug.28.2022 ✧･ﾟ✧

Crashing Waves of Instability | Aug.28.2022

Longing for a truth that soothes my soul
A lingering feeling that glues me whole.
Looking through shattered pieces of maybes and doubt
I hear the echoes of memories replaying aloud
All the different routes that I could’ve taken
All the times I have navigated forsaken
Unharmed, yet strong winds thrown against my way
Will I keep my anchor or be swayed into decay?

So Close Yet Almost Always So Far | Nov 26, 2017 ✧･ﾟ✧

So Close Yet Almost Always So Far | Nov 26, 2017

Crumbling leaves decomposing to its basic carbon form
As I remain my silence & stand still throughout this transforming storm
Ages of confusion, ages of doubt
Unmasking glory of mystery and spiritless drought

Guided by a trail of comfort and hope
Always close to grabbing on shreds of its rope
Almost with it reunited as it slips through my fingers
A feeling of strandedness emerges and lingers
So close yet... almost always so far
A battle against myself, I wage the war.

Virtual Mountains | Apr.14.2015 ✧･ﾟ✧

 Virtual Mountains | Apr.14.2015

You can read all the horoscopes in the world, but it don't mean one damn thing
You can dig deep into your fears, so much that it hurts and stings
Palm reading, tarots cards, fast forward into the future and watch it all start

Chasing fleeting images of wants and needs,
Nurturing the future's outcome like growing seeds
Possibilities, possibilities, behind vague images of inner wrath and doubt
Tempted to take glimpses into the unknown and find out what we can scout
Danger, excitement, risk or bliss?
Adventure, healing or simple reminisce?

A Witty Mockery of All Fairytales! | Dec 26, 2013 ✧･ﾟ✧

A Witty Mockery of All Fairytales! | Dec 26, 2013

Once upon a time, in a land far away, lived a little princess in a really high tower
Her faith was shaken & her heart was turning sour
Unable to think of a cure, probably delusional by society's demands
Hopelessly gives up & asks God for a man to dispose at her hands 
To rescue her from her wicked ways or save her from her evil step-mother
Unable to use the stairs or take the elevator, she simply couldn't bother

Push | Dec.16.2013 ✧･ﾟ✧

 

Push | Dec.16.2013

Every now and then, I lose my way, my wants & my needs
Just sit there and patiently wait to sow my once planted seeds
Action-oriented, success driven .. I’ve never been so addicted
That voice in the back of my head keeping one restricted
Pushing you to be better, to do better & astonishingly you eventually do
You’re a pusher, you push yourself beyond your own limitations
So far away, never thought it was possible

On the surface.. No, you never break, not even a crack
You do what it takes & compensate what you lack
"You’re just a workaholic" no one can see behind your disguise

Lost Little Birdie | Feb.25.2009 ✧･ﾟ✧

Lost Little Birdie |  Feb.25.2009

I miss u like a lost little birdie flying in the sky real free
Looking around to see where he belongs, its home tree
Then at last, it realizes its nest is in your arms
'cause I'm defenseless to your everlasting charms  ;)

 I'm swept off my feet,
Having you around is becoming one true major addiction
Like my own personal version of prince charming- yet real
It's not a fiction!
and I like it how you pop into my dreams every once in a while
and it kinda makes my day, 'cause it wakes me up with a smile
Like I don't get enough of you when I'm awake
I need your company, even if its fake

I will not Hold my Breath but Learn | Mar 06, 2013

I will not Hold my Breath but Learn | Mar 06, 2013

Always setting myself up for failure
That its sometimes truly more than I can take
I push myself too hard until I finally seize to awake

I try and I try, out of pure goodness in me
For lost memories, I just can't seem to flee
The good ones, the bad ones
No matter how little, changed me in so many ways
It's one of those things in your heart that always stays

Endless Fairytale | Dec. 2012 ✧･ﾟ✧

Endless Fairytale  | Dec. 2012

10 years from now
I personally close my eyes
Where a vivid image in my head lies
All I see is you still holding my hand
It's a fantasy of mine nobody can understand 

There's nothing I'd rather do
Than spend eternity being with you
'Cause I know nothing'll feel this pure
& nowhere I'll ever feel more secure

Out of This Maze | Nov 07, 2012 ✧･ﾟ✧

Out of This Maze | Nov 07, 2012

Say yes, Say yes I can

I’m gonna explode & reach my span

I deserve, deserve so much more

I know my potential I feel in my core

I read & I read, I always overcome

The fears I put aside, have now no sum

No longer helpless or frozen in my place

My soul explodes, inside, into many divergent rays

Many solutions leading out of this dreadful suffocating maze

Stranded on an Island | Jan 26, 2012 ✧･ﾟ✧

Stranded on an Island | Jan 26, 2012

All I wanted was to be numb, so that nothing can bring me down

Didn’t want emotional depth that without I knew I’m a clown

Just be sarcastic and cynical, take things for granted

It’s much easier than to admit, deep down u just feel stranded

On an island so far away, no one can reach or approach

Hidden radar, unknown to man, you’re your own coach

Your eyes, with its glory, can’t meet any other land

Besides that beneath your feet

Nothing to do to change surroundings; no other escape
Suddenly you feel the defeat 

It’s either sink or swim or so helplessly remain on the dry arid land
“Get up, stand up” voices in my head screamin’, the depression we no longer withstand

You're a Catch! | Mar. 2012 ✧･ﾟ✧

 You're a Catch! | Mar. 2012

Never in my life I believe in love, thought it's lame
I guess I ran away whenever the opportunity came
But then you came along with that pretty little face
& everything stopped, my legs just froze in place
I don't know, I wanted to run, I wanted to hide
But at the same time, I wanted to be by your side 

You're a catch I forever long to hold
With you I reveal my darkest secrets, my past I unfold
I feel like I can tell you anything
the shameful stuff I've done
Times I wanted to shoot myself with a gun
But I don't have to tell you about the good times
I don't even have to mention them
But know for a fact, I'm living them now with you

Let Go | Feb. 2011

Let Go | Feb. 2011

'Cause I know I deserve to be treated well
so You're not my prince charming, I can simply tell
'Cause if you were, you'd be giving me all the attention in the world
You'd love me no matter how I looked like, hair straight or curled

You'll accept me as I am and call me your queen
where every moment with you feels like a fairytale scene
While we're holding hands, you can feel our hearts merged as one
Gazing into each other's eyes, we were meant to be forever so bubbly and fun

but you're none of that, you barely show me that I'm alive
and you only care when a new guy into the picture does arrive

I hope you rotten in hell =] | Dec. 2011

I hope you rotten in hell =] | Dec. 2011

 ** Clearly I was angry when I wrote this. No revenge was actually conducted as part of this venting :p ** 

I hope you rotten in hell
& fall into a misery well
I'll dedicate my life to bringing you down
I'll be the reason for your endless frown

Revenge is my middle name
so run off my bitterness has came
So today as I leap off into sleep
I'll have a joyful memory where you weep
& I plan on making this fantasy a reality
Get this over with & enjoy mind clarity
Cuz the sight of you now makes me sick
You're nothing but a big-ass and a d*ck

 I'll be the one who'll make your life a living hell- an absolute nightmare
The devil & I will work hand in hand to deliver your rewarded evil share
We'll beat your soul right out
Even your fears will start to shout
& I'll be sitting back enjoying this serene sound
Don't you just wish things would turn around?

Fake Facts | Dec. 2011 ✧･ﾟ✧

    

Fake Facts | Dec. 2011

 It sounded unbelievable yet true
Your news shocked me, I had no clue
Oh if only there was a way to return back in time to the past
to unblind this ugly shameful truth that'll ever last 

You created my world of illusion
Where you disappeared & left me in a state of confusion
You showed me so much & so much care
Never thought you walking out on me you'll ever dare
You even carved my name on your buffy arm
Said "Never I'll become resistant to your charm"
You fed those fake facts into my head
You clearly told me honesty is the only language you speak

But now, your lies are all over, that's all you leak
Again I stroke wrong
Then again I write you a hate song

Spark Fades into the Darkness of the Night | May 07.2009 ✧･ﾟ✧

Spark Fades into the Darkness of the Night | May 07.2009

And the spark fades into the darkness of the night
Suddenly, all we represent is now dethroned from right
That small flame we lighted each other with is now non-existent or fake
Don’t know if I should give it up or wait around for future’s sake
Will this ashy burned out spark finally relight?
Or is it gonna be the end of our sorrows and fight?
The end of us.

I really can’t tell any longer
The candle of hope in me about us is dead
& with each & every passing second
I realize what else I can be doing instead
A change from searching for a match to relight that newly lost hope
Maybe climb myself up this misery mountain using my faith’s rope

As Long as You'll be Discriminating | Nov 04, 2011

As Long as You'll be Discriminating | Nov 04, 2011

For all those who discriminate, ate.
Thinking their past is their fate, fate.
Assuming that things that once were still remain in the light, right?
Creating their own groups,  they’re their own new species just so tight, tight.
Doing nothing but claiming being on top of the chain, aint?
Talking dated out past, no new results but giving constraint.

Repeating the same argument over and over hoping it’ll make sense.
Maybe if they grew some brains, they'll realize its all nothing but past tense.  

Like Steel! | Dec. 2008

Like Steel! | Dec. 2008

There was a lock on my heart with you on its inside
But it's time I let go, finally put the past aside
You see, 'cause the truth is, the key to this lock is in my hand
& I believe in myself enough to realize which concepts for I stand
The strength in me is so much that no words can ever describe
For my logic, integrity & mind clarity nothing can bribe

I'm like steel,
Cannot break but by looking back I might melt
Only be remembering what at that time I had felt
But that doesn't express how I feel at the time being

It's for a Reason | Mar 25, 2010 ✧･ﾟ✧

  

                                                 
It's for a Reason | Mar 25, 2010 

Things happen for a reason though at times we may not understand
It's our fate & lively purpose working hand in hand

The bad incidents which you lose faith over for
Do shake your confidence down to your core

But they also make you as strong as you're truly meant to be.
They teach you to find beauty when nothing good is left to see
Sometimes confusion stays more, so that the result will longer last

But during those tough times, those memories create a vivid past

How you learned to dance in the rain 

How you held your head up high when things were insane
How you stood your ground, when you could've easily fell apart

How you held on to your faith, though it was easier to depart
You see, the bad times teach you how to be happy no matter what

The good times... only make you happier.

Come Again for Another Visit | Apr. 2008

 

 

Come Again for Another Visit | Apr. 2008

** To my Aunt ^_^ **

'Cause you came into my life with a flash light
You... made the darkness suddenly seem so bright/white
and for that I thank you, you're my idol, my hero
If I didn't know you, I'd rather rank myself as zero

 I'd be lucky if I can be
Half the person you are today!
So on this night, as I go to bed I pray
For you to come for another visit
Your company is just so exquisite!
So come again I say!
Or even better, don't go, just stay...

 I'll miss your laughter & up-beat spirit
Your jokes & you name it, I'll miss it < 3