I will not Hold my Breath but Learn | Mar 06, 2013
Always setting myself up for failureThat its sometimes truly more than I can take
I push myself too hard until I finally seize to awake
I try and I try, out of pure goodness in me
For lost memories, I just can't seem to flee
The good ones, the bad ones
No matter how little, changed me in so many ways
It's one of those things in your heart that always stays
Never ever parts,
Never rests
I guess this is another of God's tests
I dare not doubt his fair judgement nor his profound rule
Yet I cannot deny this makes me realize I'm such a useless fool
For being who I am, I lost so much
For loving my privacy, I've hurt as such
I guess I had to gain it, to lose it, to learn
Did I start the fire, or did I just give away the matches?
Did I extinguish the flames or throw in more branches?
Even the ashes are no longer there, I'd thought would remain
At least a memory, a delightful encounter to sustain
Maybe things never really were as in my head I replayed
Maybe, its time I let things slip away, disappear and fade
I'm tired of setting myself up for failure & anguish
It's time I use the F word- no not that one, but Faith
to remember I'm human, this shows I have a heart, I care
That I'm not emotionless, and I will continue to feel
Maybe one day, things'll turn over
& in my favor spin the wheel.
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