I will not Hold my Breath but Learn | Mar 06, 2013

I will not Hold my Breath but Learn | Mar 06, 2013

Always setting myself up for failure
That its sometimes truly more than I can take
I push myself too hard until I finally seize to awake

I try and I try, out of pure goodness in me
For lost memories, I just can't seem to flee
The good ones, the bad ones
No matter how little, changed me in so many ways
It's one of those things in your heart that always stays

Endless Fairytale | Dec. 2012 ✧･ﾟ✧

Endless Fairytale  | Dec. 2012

10 years from now
I personally close my eyes
Where a vivid image in my head lies
All I see is you still holding my hand
It's a fantasy of mine nobody can understand 

There's nothing I'd rather do
Than spend eternity being with you
'Cause I know nothing'll feel this pure
& nowhere I'll ever feel more secure

Out of This Maze | Nov 07, 2012 ✧･ﾟ✧

Out of This Maze | Nov 07, 2012

Say yes, Say yes I can

I’m gonna explode & reach my span

I deserve, deserve so much more

I know my potential I feel in my core

I read & I read, I always overcome

The fears I put aside, have now no sum

No longer helpless or frozen in my place

My soul explodes, inside, into many divergent rays

Many solutions leading out of this dreadful suffocating maze

Stranded on an Island | Jan 26, 2012 ✧･ﾟ✧

Stranded on an Island | Jan 26, 2012

All I wanted was to be numb, so that nothing can bring me down

Didn’t want emotional depth that without I knew I’m a clown

Just be sarcastic and cynical, take things for granted

It’s much easier than to admit, deep down u just feel stranded

On an island so far away, no one can reach or approach

Hidden radar, unknown to man, you’re your own coach

Your eyes, with its glory, can’t meet any other land

Besides that beneath your feet

Nothing to do to change surroundings; no other escape
Suddenly you feel the defeat 

It’s either sink or swim or so helplessly remain on the dry arid land
“Get up, stand up” voices in my head screamin’, the depression we no longer withstand

You're a Catch! | Mar. 2012 ✧･ﾟ✧

 You're a Catch! | Mar. 2012

Never in my life I believe in love, thought it's lame
I guess I ran away whenever the opportunity came
But then you came along with that pretty little face
& everything stopped, my legs just froze in place
I don't know, I wanted to run, I wanted to hide
But at the same time, I wanted to be by your side 

You're a catch I forever long to hold
With you I reveal my darkest secrets, my past I unfold
I feel like I can tell you anything
the shameful stuff I've done
Times I wanted to shoot myself with a gun
But I don't have to tell you about the good times
I don't even have to mention them
But know for a fact, I'm living them now with you

Let Go | Feb. 2011

Let Go | Feb. 2011

'Cause I know I deserve to be treated well
so You're not my prince charming, I can simply tell
'Cause if you were, you'd be giving me all the attention in the world
You'd love me no matter how I looked like, hair straight or curled

You'll accept me as I am and call me your queen
where every moment with you feels like a fairytale scene
While we're holding hands, you can feel our hearts merged as one
Gazing into each other's eyes, we were meant to be forever so bubbly and fun

but you're none of that, you barely show me that I'm alive
and you only care when a new guy into the picture does arrive

I hope you rotten in hell =] | Dec. 2011

I hope you rotten in hell =] | Dec. 2011

 ** Clearly I was angry when I wrote this. No revenge was actually conducted as part of this venting :p ** 

I hope you rotten in hell
& fall into a misery well
I'll dedicate my life to bringing you down
I'll be the reason for your endless frown

Revenge is my middle name
so run off my bitterness has came
So today as I leap off into sleep
I'll have a joyful memory where you weep
& I plan on making this fantasy a reality
Get this over with & enjoy mind clarity
Cuz the sight of you now makes me sick
You're nothing but a big-ass and a d*ck

 I'll be the one who'll make your life a living hell- an absolute nightmare
The devil & I will work hand in hand to deliver your rewarded evil share
We'll beat your soul right out
Even your fears will start to shout
& I'll be sitting back enjoying this serene sound
Don't you just wish things would turn around?

Fake Facts | Dec. 2011 ✧･ﾟ✧

    

Fake Facts | Dec. 2011

 It sounded unbelievable yet true
Your news shocked me, I had no clue
Oh if only there was a way to return back in time to the past
to unblind this ugly shameful truth that'll ever last 

You created my world of illusion
Where you disappeared & left me in a state of confusion
You showed me so much & so much care
Never thought you walking out on me you'll ever dare
You even carved my name on your buffy arm
Said "Never I'll become resistant to your charm"
You fed those fake facts into my head
You clearly told me honesty is the only language you speak

But now, your lies are all over, that's all you leak
Again I stroke wrong
Then again I write you a hate song

Spark Fades into the Darkness of the Night | May 07.2009 ✧･ﾟ✧

Spark Fades into the Darkness of the Night | May 07.2009

And the spark fades into the darkness of the night
Suddenly, all we represent is now dethroned from right
That small flame we lighted each other with is now non-existent or fake
Don’t know if I should give it up or wait around for future’s sake
Will this ashy burned out spark finally relight?
Or is it gonna be the end of our sorrows and fight?
The end of us.

I really can’t tell any longer
The candle of hope in me about us is dead
& with each & every passing second
I realize what else I can be doing instead
A change from searching for a match to relight that newly lost hope
Maybe climb myself up this misery mountain using my faith’s rope

As Long as You'll be Discriminating | Nov 04, 2011

As Long as You'll be Discriminating | Nov 04, 2011

For all those who discriminate, ate.
Thinking their past is their fate, fate.
Assuming that things that once were still remain in the light, right?
Creating their own groups,  they’re their own new species just so tight, tight.
Doing nothing but claiming being on top of the chain, aint?
Talking dated out past, no new results but giving constraint.

Repeating the same argument over and over hoping it’ll make sense.
Maybe if they grew some brains, they'll realize its all nothing but past tense.  

Like Steel! | Dec. 2008

Like Steel! | Dec. 2008

There was a lock on my heart with you on its inside
But it's time I let go, finally put the past aside
You see, 'cause the truth is, the key to this lock is in my hand
& I believe in myself enough to realize which concepts for I stand
The strength in me is so much that no words can ever describe
For my logic, integrity & mind clarity nothing can bribe

I'm like steel,
Cannot break but by looking back I might melt
Only be remembering what at that time I had felt
But that doesn't express how I feel at the time being

It's for a Reason | Mar 25, 2010 ✧･ﾟ✧

  

                                                 
It's for a Reason | Mar 25, 2010 

Things happen for a reason though at times we may not understand
It's our fate & lively purpose working hand in hand

The bad incidents which you lose faith over for
Do shake your confidence down to your core

But they also make you as strong as you're truly meant to be.
They teach you to find beauty when nothing good is left to see
Sometimes confusion stays more, so that the result will longer last

But during those tough times, those memories create a vivid past

How you learned to dance in the rain 

How you held your head up high when things were insane
How you stood your ground, when you could've easily fell apart

How you held on to your faith, though it was easier to depart
You see, the bad times teach you how to be happy no matter what

The good times... only make you happier.

Come Again for Another Visit | Apr. 2008

 

 

Come Again for Another Visit | Apr. 2008

** To my Aunt ^_^ **

'Cause you came into my life with a flash light
You... made the darkness suddenly seem so bright/white
and for that I thank you, you're my idol, my hero
If I didn't know you, I'd rather rank myself as zero

 I'd be lucky if I can be
Half the person you are today!
So on this night, as I go to bed I pray
For you to come for another visit
Your company is just so exquisite!
So come again I say!
Or even better, don't go, just stay...

 I'll miss your laughter & up-beat spirit
Your jokes & you name it, I'll miss it < 3

Turning Point | Jun 07, 2013 ✧･ﾟ✧

 

Turning Point | Jun 07, 2013

Ashes to ashes

Dust to dust 
Watch it all wash away& turn into rust   

Like it never happened, like it was all simply fake
to now realize what we define lies on sloping stake 
to completely lose it, have it disappear into the past unknown
Part our own ways or be victims of acquaintances seldom phoned
"Hey, how are you?" with a virtual pat on the shoulder
Your defense comes up, you act like a brave soldier

Like you don't care, it don't matter, all is good
Have a laugh, ignore circumstances once misunderstood
Give honesty a back seat, with no appreciation or seatbelt
Handle things with tact, simply living life on autopilot unfelt  
But that shouldn't be the way it is, shouldn't be the way it'll ever be
Happiness & sadness is up to us whether we keep it or let it flee

Day-Dreaming | July.06.2008

Day-Dreaming | July.06.2008

A confusion overpowers me that I can no longer take
On my way to freak out, my confidence's starting to shake 

I try & look away or at least ignore
But you're what my soul really fell for
I try to change this fact & convince myself otherwise
Yet it feels like you're my heart's eternal prize
'cause I've never felt this strongly about anyone before
Evidence is my heart has unlocked its never opened door

No matter how hard I try to distract myself & how much I pray
They're emotions that are stuck in my head & there to stay
You yourself resemble part of my lost identity & a part of my soul
You're my other half, you completed me and made me whole
In your absence - inside- I feel I'm weak
But then, in my head I hear you speak

Shorts! | July.05.2008

Shorts! | July.05.2008

I've hit rock bottom as I fall from a very high peak
About to crash, my whole life I've been weak
Vulnerable from the inside though not showing it out
Laughing hysterically for you yet inside I pout

What the hell happened for me to reach a level this low
What's wrong with me, every chance I get I blow
I've joined the dark side by crossing that separating line
Feels like my soul is now lost, no longer mine
I do stand for everything that is wrong and what is fake
Rather than spreading the love, I spread the ache

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Every time I close my eyes, all i see is your angelic face
I'm really into you, it's not just the beauty of the chase
I long to hold your hand and hold you tight
I never felt anything that feels this right.

You hugged me and its like I broke free
I'm a lost bird and you are my tree

A Few Words of Wisdom | May.05.2008

A Few Words of Wisdom |  May.05.2008

Sit back and relax, enjoy the day
Reach out to those great things for you pray

 Smile in the eye of danger
& take matters into your own hands
Stick to your opinions
Even if no one understands
Don't take no for an answer & go after what you want
Just do it even if it's some kinda stupid stunt

Don’t overthink... 'Cause that's a lifetime wasted
Agony & pain would be the only things you've tasted
Take the good with the bad
& Smile like you're glad

Never give up! | Aug. 2012

Never give up! | Aug. 2012

 
All the times I prayed before I went to bed
I always remembered what it was you said
Smile in the eye of danger
and keep your head up high
Never give up or let go a sigh
 
Keep going on till you reach the path of success
Then you'll realize, all you went through, all the mess
Was worth it all

For it doesn't matter when you get there, but how