I will not Hold my Breath but Learn | Mar 06, 2013

I will not Hold my Breath but Learn | Mar 06, 2013

Always setting myself up for failure
That its sometimes truly more than I can take
I push myself too hard until I finally seize to awake

I try and I try, out of pure goodness in me
For lost memories, I just can't seem to flee
The good ones, the bad ones
No matter how little, changed me in so many ways
It's one of those things in your heart that always stays

Endless Fairytale | Dec. 2012 ✧･ﾟ✧

Endless Fairytale  | Dec. 2012

10 years from now
I personally close my eyes
Where a vivid image in my head lies
All I see is you still holding my hand
It's a fantasy of mine nobody can understand 

There's nothing I'd rather do
Than spend eternity being with you
'Cause I know nothing'll feel this pure
& nowhere I'll ever feel more secure

Out of This Maze | Nov 07, 2012 ✧･ﾟ✧

Out of This Maze | Nov 07, 2012

Say yes, Say yes I can

I’m gonna explode & reach my span

I deserve, deserve so much more

I know my potential I feel in my core

I read & I read, I always overcome

The fears I put aside, have now no sum

No longer helpless or frozen in my place

My soul explodes, inside, into many divergent rays

Many solutions leading out of this dreadful suffocating maze

Stranded on an Island | Jan 26, 2012 ✧･ﾟ✧

Stranded on an Island | Jan 26, 2012

All I wanted was to be numb, so that nothing can bring me down

Didn’t want emotional depth that without I knew I’m a clown

Just be sarcastic and cynical, take things for granted

It’s much easier than to admit, deep down u just feel stranded

On an island so far away, no one can reach or approach

Hidden radar, unknown to man, you’re your own coach

Your eyes, with its glory, can’t meet any other land

Besides that beneath your feet

Nothing to do to change surroundings; no other escape
Suddenly you feel the defeat 

It’s either sink or swim or so helplessly remain on the dry arid land
“Get up, stand up” voices in my head screamin’, the depression we no longer withstand

You're a Catch! | Mar. 2012 ✧･ﾟ✧

 You're a Catch! | Mar. 2012

Never in my life I believe in love, thought it's lame
I guess I ran away whenever the opportunity came
But then you came along with that pretty little face
& everything stopped, my legs just froze in place
I don't know, I wanted to run, I wanted to hide
But at the same time, I wanted to be by your side 

You're a catch I forever long to hold
With you I reveal my darkest secrets, my past I unfold
I feel like I can tell you anything
the shameful stuff I've done
Times I wanted to shoot myself with a gun
But I don't have to tell you about the good times
I don't even have to mention them
But know for a fact, I'm living them now with you

Let Go | Feb. 2011

Let Go | Feb. 2011

'Cause I know I deserve to be treated well
so You're not my prince charming, I can simply tell
'Cause if you were, you'd be giving me all the attention in the world
You'd love me no matter how I looked like, hair straight or curled

You'll accept me as I am and call me your queen
where every moment with you feels like a fairytale scene
While we're holding hands, you can feel our hearts merged as one
Gazing into each other's eyes, we were meant to be forever so bubbly and fun

but you're none of that, you barely show me that I'm alive
and you only care when a new guy into the picture does arrive

I hope you rotten in hell =] | Dec. 2011

I hope you rotten in hell =] | Dec. 2011

 ** Clearly I was angry when I wrote this. No revenge was actually conducted as part of this venting :p ** 

I hope you rotten in hell
& fall into a misery well
I'll dedicate my life to bringing you down
I'll be the reason for your endless frown

Revenge is my middle name
so run off my bitterness has came
So today as I leap off into sleep
I'll have a joyful memory where you weep
& I plan on making this fantasy a reality
Get this over with & enjoy mind clarity
Cuz the sight of you now makes me sick
You're nothing but a big-ass and a d*ck

 I'll be the one who'll make your life a living hell- an absolute nightmare
The devil & I will work hand in hand to deliver your rewarded evil share
We'll beat your soul right out
Even your fears will start to shout
& I'll be sitting back enjoying this serene sound
Don't you just wish things would turn around?